06 February 2013


Very difficult time in counseling yesterday.  It is hard to hear how dead my husband feels inside.  It is hard for me to express how I am feeling and wish for some type of sign that he actually gets it, that it makes an impact.

He biffed the landing Friday and Saturday nights this past week and that, combined with the topics we discussed in counseling, are just leaving me emotionally raw.  I'm at one of those stages where hope is low.  I spent most of my day today in my office trying not to think about it because I started to cry every time I did think about all that is going on.

I know I have to keep pressing forward.  I have to continue to fight and hang on to God for me, my husband, and our marriage.  But not tonight.

Cry tonight.  Regroup tomorrow.

02 February 2013

Project 365, Week 5

A few of my pictures this week are food-oriented since I am starting to eat again and still testing out new and different stuff that I've never eaten before or was convinced I didn't like (cauliflower!  I like cauliflower!  AAAAACKKKKK!!!)

Celeriac (celery root) salad with red onions, shredded romaine, arugula and a lemon juice/olive oil dressing.  Celeriac - knobby looking thing kind of like a deformed jicama.  Not bad. Definitely needs something to dress it up.  It is the tofu of the vegetable world.

For the past two weeks, I have been able to add protein to my lunch.  Meat!  The Spousal Unit deemed this "quite the salad".  Two cups of veg, basil, mint, cilantro and six ounces of flat iron steak!  Ah, chewing.  How I have missed thee.

In regards to a particular co-worker...

My oldest granddaughter, Rylie, wearing the ballerina princess outfit we got her for Christmas.  Her expression is exactly the one her mom would have at that age.

Breakfast!  I am now in Phase 3 which means I get to eat breakfast again.  It's a specific type of breakfast with a certain amount of carbs or calories in the protein, grain, dairy and fruit categories that I need to hit every morning.  I have to eat it all at one sitting.  If I can't finish it, I need to throw the rest away.  Today's breakfast was four egg whites, one apple, four ounces quinoa with one Splenda and 8 oz almond milk.  Couldn't finish it all and had to throw some of the apple away.

So there you have it.  I hope those of you that are watching the Superbowl for the games or commercials have a good time :).